Marriage.

Ok. I’ve been married for almost 2 Years and 9 months now, but why do I feel like I’ve been in this relationship for more than I can imagine. J

My husband and I was not into “long term ligawan (courtship)” nor did we became long time “BF” and “GF”. When we decided to become a couple, we immediately agreed that the next thing is marriage.

Guess they were right! Time flies so fast that one day I woke up with 3 boys in my bedroom. Yes! THREE! My husband, our eldest Duke and our youngest DEUEL. It was like rapture! You know! With just a blink of an eye, everything happens. (*wink*)

This marriage journey was like a bed of roses. No arguments. No differences. No adjustments. Nothing! And I’m just being sarcastic right? Ha-ha! Seriously, everything was like a bomb that exploded in front of my face.

And yes, all those “pa-cute” and “pa-tweetum” moments are gone. I remember the words I used to just shrug off when elders’ gives advice regarding marriage. And I say, all I believe is that “LOVE CONQUERS ALL”!

Is it so?

Then, why there were times of arguments that leads to fight? Why I was out of control. I get mad! I get angry! And even thought that I’m stupid enough not to foresee all these things will come.

I remember in the movie “The Croods”, one of the main character, Eve, would ask his father this question, “What’s the point of all this?”

And yes, what’s the point of all this? What’s the point of marriage?

Is it God’s way of punishing me? Or is it God’s way of refining me.

As I write this blog, God was telling me, “I am not finished with you, Jowee. Remember when you used to lock yourself in your room cry out to me all day and felt that I was not there? That I didn’t hear you? What was your prayer then? And where were you right now? I have proved my faithfulness to you. I was with you all through this time. As I have promised you in Deuteronomy 31:6, “…I will never leave you nor forsake you”. Just be patient. Be faithful even in small things. Just like a wood carver, I am in the process of transforming you into a beautiful creation. I know it’s painful every time I hit the chisel on you. One day you will be finish and people will come to know how faithful and powerful I am because of you. I will use you! Stand in your ground and keep My words in your heart. My promises and plans for you are still the same.”

What a comfort! What a relief!

I am not perfect. Everyday I am trying to be better. A better wife and mom to my son Duke and Deuel. Every day I am praying that things about my marriage will be a little bit easier. No more arguments! No more differences! Just love.

Love conquers all?

God’s love conquers all!

It’s the bond that will keep my relationship with my family strong.

They say marriage is a relationship between two people.

I say, marriage is a relationship of two people with God.